Thanks

Thanks for the emails and comments.  I appreciate your support as I get through this.

As expected, I’m sort-of letting go of Brig emotionally.  I, of course, see him and take care of him, but it’s been awhile since I’ve even put a halter on him.  He’s just been . . . being.  I do capture him with a leadrope and torture him with fly spray and maybe a brush, if he’s too much of a pig pen.  Today it was wormer.  He’s got an itchy butt — either pin or tape worms or a dry tail. 

He’s been a turd about being caught because he doesn’t want to be moved away from his lady friends who are all peeing at the fence for his delight.  So, if you see a bay horse wandering around his field with five legs, that’s probably Brig. 

He lost the shoe from his bad foot over the weekend and is a little sore on it.  Not too bad –at least, not bad enough that he won’t run from me in the pasture.  I’m trying to manage an appointment with the farrier.  Then, we have his actual appointment in less than ten days. 

I had a rough week after everything was settled with Brig and had some sleepless nights, crying myself to sleep.  I know it’s the right thing to do, but it’s hard.  I haven’t told J or the kids yet.  I just don’t feel like dealing with the questions right now and J is going to give me a hard time about not waiting until we have property.

I’m just a little excited about having extra money and am considering what I’m going to do with it.  Well, which bill I will pay off first, second and third.  I figure I’ll start with the vet bills.  Then, I’ll get my car fixed.  Once I’m not doing the barn thing anymore, I’ll spring for a good detailing.  Since having a horse, my car is disgusting, inside and out.  Then, I’m going to focus on one credit card that, if I double my payments, can be paid within a year.  Once that one is tackled, I’ll work on the second credit card.  When that one is paid off, I’ll finish up paying for my car.  I’m also planning on a vacation for J and I.  If we each put away $100 per month, we’ll be able to go on a nice cruise to the Caribbean next Spring.  He’s always wanted to do that.  I haven’t, but I’ve had plenty of vacations over the past ten years and he’s had one — our trip to Disneyland last fall.  Hopefully by next Spring I’ll be able to wear a bikini without scaring anyone.